Written 01/15/2011
So, something that’s been on my mind lately is how much trust I refuse to give anyone, specifically those I work with.
Normally, I trust everyone and give everyone the benefit of any doubt, usually to the extreme, which of course, has gotten me in trouble before. To a fault I’m loyal, even to those I barely know, and it takes a lot to lose that trust.
However, I find myself distrusting everyone at work, and specifically walling myself off from them. I don’t like to interact with anyone for fear that something might slip.
On top of that, I find myself being suspicious of everyone as well, fearing that anyone at any time is trying to get me fired.
I hate going through life like that. It’s tiring, and not me. But as much as I want to try to change, I can’t take that chance.
Hopefully, something will change soon, and I can be myself again.
All my best,
The King of Spades
