I have a couple blogs that I read all the time, and way too many that I occasionally pop in on. The ones I read all the time are the ones who not only have great content, but a writing style that I enjoy reading.
One such blog is Waking Up Now. I consider myself lucky enough to have actually e-mailed a few times with Rob back and forth, and he is absolutely amazing! His videos and commentary are top-notch, level headed, and really a huge community service. But for whatever reason, I never read his “about” page. Maybe I never noticed it up at the top, who knows (I just wrote a post for The Great and Secret Show, so please excuse me if I’m rambling, or talking too much about communication type things), so I was a little floored and then cautious about some of what he wrote:
It worked on the job, too. Be the go-to guy everyone enjoys working with. Be nice to everyone and everyone will be nice to you. You smother a lot of yourself in the process, but it’s safer, isn’t it?
That’s pretty close to how I’ve worked at the Boy Scouts, although I added my own little twist. If I was going to be employed by a company that hates the gays so much, then I was going to prove them wrong about the fact that we shouldn’t be treated as people. I am going to be the best damn employee they have. Then maybe some of them will get it, will understand that it doesn’t matter who you love and care for and who you are attracted to.
So I keep that in the back of my mind, pushing myself. And I’m not the best, although I think I’m probably the second or third best member of the support staff, it is very hard to keep up. It is a constant struggle to work for an organization that wouldn’t even have me as a member if I was honest about everything.
Keeping that balance is tough. And it is very draining. I keep myself going thinking that I’ll be able to change some minds in the future, but that’s not a given, it’s not certain. That’s one of the big reasons I started this section of writing, to keep myself going, to have some sort of an outlet for all these conflicting ideas and thoughts. It’s strange, I’ve stopped writing this paragraph at least half a dozen times, because I keep forgetting where I’m going, if that doesn’t tell me my mind needs some sort of release I don’t know what does, as I’ve been told that my natural state of being is multitasking.
Thanks for reading, and I’ll keep plowing forward, both in work and in my writing, I have more of a story to tell yet.
All my best,
The King of Spades